Anniversary and the end of post miscarriage confinement

In 2 days time insya Allah, we will be celebrating my 6th wedding anniversary n end of confinement. Can't believe its our 6th. We have gone thro a lot n I bet there is more to come. This anniversary also marks the end of my confinement period. It wud have been happier if our twins are with us but it is not to be.Our twins are in heaven n one day insya Allah we will get to meet them.

I have no idea what to give hubbs.Last year was easy, it was wood so I gave him a golf club. this year traditionally its iron. I don't think he needs more since he just bought them last year. hmm...since we are in KL, I won't be cooking a special dinner for him. Will do that once we are back home in miri.

To my darling hubby, thank you so much for the wonderful years n our kids. insya Allah, we will be blessed w more children n our marriage lasts thro time.

separation anxiety

hubbs asked if i wanted to watch mamma mia. we felt that maybe we cud try n leave nazeefah w her toks then hubbs reconsidered. he said that i wud probably be balling my eyes out wanting her w us :) so far, i have only been apart from her during 2 occasions. one, when she was in scbu n the other was after my miscarriage. must say, i hated both times. now that we have a maid, i am so trying to tear myself away fr her but its not successful. i do allow the maid to play w her alone but ever so often i will make sure i check on them, like every 10 seconds:). letting her play w the maid is made a lil easier since i am still in confinement so can't really go out.

we are thinking of sending her to playsch. i must learn to let go.my lil bb needs to grow up n be independent. she needs to play w frens her own age.i have to stop molly coddling her. easier said than done, most definitely.

looks like i am having a bad case of separation anxiety.

baking baking baking

today is the 2nd day of baking . tried out what was supposed to be oatmeal raisins muffins yesterday. supposed to be since while i was putting the ingerdients together, realised that the oats i had are no longer edible. quickly substituted w more flour. after having bung the muffins into the oven, i realised that my sis had left some oats fr her last trip. well..n managed to have one whole piece right after her nap. after that piece, she kept biting the tops of a few others, refusing to eat the whole muffin. hubbs felt it was ok but needed more sugar.

am trying out another recipe today. eggless n dairy free cupcakes. tried it once b4 n was not happy w the result. put it down to i was still fiddling around w my oven then. this time round,using the fan oven instead. hopefully it will work out.

hmm..m suppose to lose wt but all these baking is doing us no good. well..n is eating. i guess i just need to restrain myself fr eating them.hahaha..as if that is going to happen. looking forward to the end of confinement so i can go swimming.

our maid has arrived. we arranged for one b4 the miscarriage happened. hubbs put his foot down n said whatever it is we are going to have one. its been ok so far.didn't think i wud b ok w having someone else in the house. i love the help actually. now, i have time to do other things n lil one has someone to play with esp since if i leave the house i have to wear long sleeves n socks. aiyo! too hot la here for that.went to pbc on sat n nearly fainted fr the heat esp since i was all decked out in confinement wear. another 10 days to ho...yay!

Life...gift fr Allah the Almighty

Life Is a
Gift

Today
before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't
speak.

Before
you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone
who has nothing to eat.

Before
you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone
who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today
before you complain about life - Think of someone who died
too early on this earth..

Before
you complain about your children - Think of someone who
desires children but they're barren.

Before
you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or
sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before
whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
walks the same distance with their feet.

And when
you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your
job.

But
before you think of pointing the finger or condemning
another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on
your face and think: you're alive and still
around.

got this fr a good fren today. its nice when u get emails like these. for me, it reminds me that life is short n u shud always think of others b4 yourself.

lots of things have happened in the last few months. in a way, i am glad its nearly the end of the yr. can't wait for the brand new yr. i wonder what is in store....well that is for me 2 plan but it is Allah who will decide.

have at least 1 new yr resolution. need to get fit. have been so lethargic. insya Allah, if all goes to plan i will b able to have some time to myself next yr.