ons klein meisje is 11 months old

I can't believe that lil lieverd is 11 months old already. it has been a long journey full of the unexpected. on days like these when she behaves and has a long nap..i really feel bad for every cross word i have said n every negative thing i have done to her...verbally. no one told me that being a stay at home can be sooo hard.no..i take that back, my best friend finaz has applauded me loads of times that she will never b able to do what i am doing. sometimes i am sooo exhausted that i can't even b proud of her achievements. being a kiasu mum doesn't help, i guess. deep down i know nazeefah doesn't have a clue what her mummy is all about. there have been times when i will just sit n bawl my eyes out n she will just look at me. it's been tough..new place, new life actually. and it doesn't help when people keep implying that i am not feeding her. boy..its been pretty hard feeding her. most of my battles w her have been over food. there are times when i just want to give up and shove an orogastric tube down her just to get some food down. maybe if she was on formula i wudn't be that hard on myself then again she may refuse her formula and be back at sq 1. being patient is not one of my traits.

on the positive side, lieverd can:
1. wave and say hello
2. acknowledges other kids n the stray cat..yes! mummy needs to get her act together n bring her to the playgroup on weds
3. crawl and get into all sorts of mischief
4. hears the gate opening n knows that daddy's home
5. grin to greet daddy

gosh and many more which i can't think of at this point of time.

all in all, it has been a pretty tedious journey but i do look forward to the entire journey of her life..we love her to bits . Most important of all, we can't thank Allah enuff for the opportunity of having her in our life..our lil lieverd